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2011-03-20T16:23:00.000+08:00

it hurt over & over again, but yet nothing seem to matter in e end. no matter hw huge e mistake was, u jus wan him to be right there beside u. i knew i've to but... it's hurting pretty bad... i try my best to give wad i can but come on... this isn't a one-man show stuffs.

bring me back to the start, NOW.
you said you will do it if i say " NOW "

2011-02-11T00:18:00.002+08:00

I'M DRAINED . . .
Down with flu, cough, body ache, block nose & manly voice...

Over-worked myself for the past few week.
The unbearable aches on my shoulders and neck now slowly climbing over my entire body!
IT'S EXCRUCIATING!

I need a full body massage!

2011-02-10T02:38:00.000+08:00

This is where I wanna be this time of the year ( 140211 )!

2011-02-09T01:34:00.000+08:00

Forgetting about us exchanging " I ♥ You " and kisses each time we ended a call, each time we hugged goodbye and each time we looked into the eyes.

You took my breath away but now I need to take a little breather; yet I guess it’s too much to ask.

My heart remains true, yet you took no trust. Letting go, isn’t just about kicking a bucket off the ground. Words of those were never meant to be said. I’ve hurt you bad, yet you never knew about the aches that I’ve felt.

Sometimes I wish I’m not myself anymore.

Texts that were written on the christmas card from me to u;

You’ve fulfilled my fetish, you’ve succeeded with all the impossibilities.
In the eyes of mine, you’re reflected as a love warrior in my mind.
Fought several wars and duels, till you reached this path where I stand.
Then, you held my hands.
With a sudden croak, " It’s finally came to an end ".

Love resembled different stations, I was one of the many station; labeled " AWAITS " till you dropped by…

It’s finally came to an end; and now I pondered, did I mean “ END “ as love or the torment of breakup?

How can I ever forget, these few years of love?
Perhaps, if I’m not me anymore.

2011-01-28T16:15:00.001+08:00

Sometimes words are not needed.
women are born sensitive, FEEL and ask your heart.
you will know HE DO NOT LOVE you.
it's hard.
to break away from the lies you've made up for him for so long.
but that same pain will smack you right your face and wake you up
And more than often, the truth hurts.

2011-01-27T16:16:00.002+08:00

Every decision made shapes ones future.
I thought he's doing good without me, but in reality he's not.
My every smile hides the sadness!

2011-01-24T12:31:00.002+08:00

Hong Kong trip been postponed due to some reasons.
Next up - China March 2011

2011-01-17T12:40:00.000+08:00

Reach the crossroad once again!

I'm lost... I don't wish to look back and curse myself for making the wrong decisions in life again. I've seen so much tragedies to become oneself. Haiz, I wish i have clue at what to do.

When will I be done with being just an option?

CUM... I need a wallet badly!

FML~

2011-01-09T07:26:00.000+08:00

We all have imperfections.

That’s how love gets in and make they seem jus perfect. They said true love won’t hurt. But if it can’t make us hurt, it’s not love.

Remember: The time you feel lonely is the time you most need to be yourself.

Life’s cruelest irony. Do not waste the life you got. Because if you did, you have mocked people who struggle very hard to live. Perhaps you can never forget pain. But you can learn from it, and let someone heals it. It takes a moment to fall in love but it takes a lifetime to get over it. It’s not about the past; it’s not about the future but rather about what you can do now.

It’s not about who make the mistakes, its about who will fix it and make it right.

2010-12-31T10:29:00.000+08:00

i wish today will be over in a blink of the eye n let's welcome YR 2011...

2010-12-30T22:31:00.002+08:00

lots of things had happened in my life within this short period of time. mth of Dec! share the problems that im facing but i guess something are still better to keep it in the dark.

at last i have learnt to art of keeping myself cool and think when things go outta hand. smiles start to appear from my face and i really need a spice up my own life? ponders and ponders~

work - lots of shit is given to me but then im kinda enjoying these shitty situations. it might sound stupid n weird but, IF I CAN'T CHANGE THEM, I'LL JOIN THEM! seem to be chirpy nowadays, thats so unlike me isnt it? maybe im starting to look at thingy the easy way or maybe i dont give a damn to things happening around me already.

me - self torturing is wad im going through now. the more pain im inherited, the more relieved i feel. or maybe i should be like Silas from the movie Da Vinci Code, self punishment to clean off the sins one is owning.

friends - new sort of people is appearing into my life. i thank u ppl for spending ur precious time. ur companies are something that i appeciated alot. for the moment, i lost hope in my life. it's u, my friends, who brought colors into it. thanks for ur patience and understanding.

2010-12-26T22:14:00.000+08:00

Everything is over!
I'm back to my old self~

2010-12-21T23:35:00.000+08:00

a message from ---

when u cry;

if u cries in front of him means that u couldn't take it anymore... if he take ur hand and i'm sure tat u'll stay w him; but if he let go, u couldn't go back to being urself anymore..

u wont cry easily, except in front of e person whom u loves e most & u become weak.

a girl wont cry easily, only when she love u, she put down her ego.

when u cry rite in front of him, when u cry becoz of him, did he look into ur eyes? did he feel e pain & hurt u're feeling? think. which other girl hv cried w pure sincerity in front of him...

u cries nt because u're weak, u cries nt becoz u wan sympathy or pity. u cries bcoz crying silently is no longer possible, e pain, hurt n agony hv bcome too big till a burden to be kept inside.

i'm nt sure if he's brainless or wad, but y don't he think about it. if u cry ur heart out to him & all because of him it's time 4 him to look back on wad u've done,
ONLY HE WILL KNOW THE ANSWER TO IT~

2010-12-12T13:56:00.002+08:00

i miss u...

i know tat at time i will nt do wadever u wan me to do...
i know tat at time i disobey u...
i know tat at time i do disrespect u...
i know tat at time i make u angry...
i know tat im always a disgrace to u in front of everyone...
i know tat im always giving u unnecessary problem...
i know tat im bad, evil n not a good ger unlike others...
i know tat i had never been a good ger to u...

these feeling is so hard to describe... how i wish i can tell u how i feel... but, these chance never came at all ever since i left~

2010-12-11T05:41:00.000+08:00

Relationship

ive learnt that looks actually count in a relationship but it jus to go beyond that to make relationship grows.

ive learnt that beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart.

ive learnt that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking together in the same direction.

ive learnt that love is not blind, it sees more not less; but because it sees more, it chooses to see less.

ive learnt that love doesn't make the world go round; love is what makes the ride worthwhile.

ive learnt that u cannot make someone love u. all u can do is be someone who can be loved. the rest is up to them.

2010-12-08T01:03:00.002+08:00

Dream Come True?

Received this message few year back~ How true?

" Sorry for not being able to pacify you sooner when you are angry or upset. In my heart, i will oways be there for you and side u de.. believe me k? i dunno wad to say that will be able to make up to you but juz to tell u tat i reali care and tatz why i do the things i do... pls dun find me 'fan' k?

One day yr dream shall come true...

2010-07-13T01:51:00.002+08:00

Gosh, I miss e WC final~ DUE to some wonderful n stupid reason!

Anyway, ytd lunch at Din Tai Feng w yipo n didi.. later part sis n jo join us! Weekend pass jus a blink. Had a dame fruitful n madness quarrel w an HERO! Instead of asking wad's e real reason behind every quarrel, HERO jus went all out & started his stupid rubbish reason again! Y is it always such " SHIT " happens on u n not other huh? Can something please enlighten me? Plus, i do HATE ppl who take advantage of me.

Sometimes, i really don't know how to counter Man's ego; it always ended up with unhappiness, armed with hatred and tears.

Simply shattered. Real loss only occurs when you lose something you love more than yourself, I will not cry because it's over but smile because it happen!

2010-07-12T03:05:00.008+08:00

Paul - Octopus predicted SPAIN n Mani - Parrot predicted Netherlands.
So, who will be the winner of year 2010 WC?
GO HOLLAND, GO HOLLAND~~

2010-07-12T02:47:00.000+08:00

Wonder y e one whom show care & concern is never e one u r sharing blankets with?
Is it true that " Nothing Good Happen Twice? "
Life is pretty much the same almost everyday. Somethings are meant to be remembered while others, it would be better w/o them. Thus, i told myself no point getting suck in the past again.

I miss my galz.. Thanks kelly & linda for ur listening ears~
Planning for our JAPAN trip... wooh wooh~

2009-12-29T15:17:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling sick! My throat is terrible in pain. Woke up and realize it's 1.30pm~ LOLs... Dame freaking tired. Ended up w/o going in office today. Will need to get my ass back to work tomorrow due to my month end closing again. Everyone is enjoying the shit down period n here i'm still hv to pop in for my accrual. Sick + stress + feeling irritated. Hmm, how's your December getting so far? Enjoying mine & also looking forward to a new year 2010...

To my surprise, received this sms from my darling kelly :-

" Valuing a relationship is not merely done by seeing each other everyday. What counts is how much in our busy lives we remember each other. "

I AGREE with this quote totally!

2009-12-27T23:37:00.000+08:00

Celebrating my christmas with my fellow babes & family member at sista’s house n i'm proud of her pretty Christmas tree!
Exchanging gifts, log cake, funny games n of coz tgt w yummp food!..

As for New Year, I feel like staying at home or gather some babes to my house for a steamboat. Jam everywhere and I’ll be piss off if I’m out on the streets.

New Year Resolutions:

- Save + spend more money for my holiday w family, buddy & friend ( my all time fav )
- Save more money for my new HOME~
- & more
- & more
- & more

2009-12-26T23:44:00.001+08:00

AVATAR . . .

didn't managed to get the 3D tickets so just got e normal one instead. Definitely one of the best animated film i've watch so far. GREAT movice, GREAT visual graphics effect, GREAT storyline, GREAT actors & etc... I bet watching it in 3D would be so much better! I can't believe how amazing this movie was at first, but i was lost in their world for 3 hrs.

' AVATAR ' considered one of the most expensive films ever made too...

' AVATAR ' shows the reality of human...

2009-12-01T15:33:00.001+08:00

I need to get a break from many obligations and need more time to catch up on old projects. I just feel a little distant from my love partner while i'm busy thinking about the practical side of life.

Quote of e day :-
When you have to deal with an abrasive person, keep your chin up and keep smiling!

2009-11-04T15:58:00.000+08:00

Suay….

Good things just don’t happen to me and when I thought it’s starting to change for the better, there’s always some shitty things happening. The never ending cycle. I want to get out of all this shit! No point getting sunk in the past. I need to set a goal and of course it will be a realistic one. FYI, I hate ppl tat take advantage of me! Yes, I am referring to u. Btw, pls take note on this n keep this in mind! “ ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS “. Lastly, - Arguing with you is like running in the Special Olympics. Even if you win, you’re still retarded. Don’t worry, I will not make myself a retarded.

2009-10-10T01:10:00.003+08:00

i hate KPO...
i hate those ppl tat buzidong...
onli when things happen then look for HELP.
plus, getting married the following week n before that still visit those funnyt/dirty place to look for fun. hence, i would advise ppl who attend their wedding to include ur account no. at e back of e red packet. coz soon nt later the money will be transferred back to ur account...

2009-09-27T14:22:00.002+08:00

- I need some HAPPY pills -

It’s a sunday afternoon… What is me doing here at this time? I don’t know what’s with me today... Woke up and felt as though something is missing around me. Got no mood at all, somehow I felt that everyone is behaving wired, fake, strangely lately. Jus finish my conversation w her, somehow or rather, I feel so sorry n bad towards her. Truth is wad I wanna noe! I felt like going to the place where my happiness belong and enjoy the breeze…

2009-09-26T23:47:00.000+08:00

This world is cruel.
People around is cruel.
Life is cruel.
Decision is cruel.
You are cruel & I am cruel.

Pick me from this obscenely isolated situation of mine.
Why do I moan the lost of love from my heart?
Why do I feel my emotions running on pure nothing?
Why do I encounter horrid nightmares n weep me to sleep?

回到過去
Having disorder tat might need professional help, and yet, I am dragging my time like no one biz. I simply didn’t want to give it up but at times I feel scared that it might get out of hand.

2009-09-24T01:09:00.002+08:00

Had been rather busy at work recently!

And finally, now i'm setting some time for my blog.

As usual~ work, study, design

2009-09-17T04:27:00.000+08:00

Time files unknowingly. Good and bad times, we've been through it. Having u 2 siblings is the greatest pleasure of my life. It's e step to make my life whole n fulfilling. I thank you for being there for me whenever i need u guys.

Have u ever sit down n think carefully y r we born to be siblings?

I've tried.. but no answer has been told. Can onli recall those silly memories when we were young. Nevertheless, deep inside my heart i knew he & she care~

W/O her, i won't be who i am today. E job tat she intro me, e words tat she used to make me stronger.

W/O him, i am not who i am today. E care n love i always told myself that i've to give as a sister.

Kinship isn't about who came first. It's all about who came and never leave. It does not matter who he/she is, understanding is e core. Siblings do fright but they will always be there when you need them. They r special in their own way.

2009-09-14T01:09:00.000+08:00

Had been rather busy at work recently!
And finally, now i'm setting some time for my blog.

As usual~ work, study, design & etc...
Haiz, I'm so much craving for that long deserved break that I've always been dreaming about
" B S S " = BEACH SUN SEA

2009-08-27T13:44:00.000+08:00

Have you experienced this grace in your life?
Have you extended grace to those who have hurt you?
Can you let go of any wrongs that have come through friends or associates?
The grace you extend may change their lives — and yours.

Can this be done?

2009-08-01T11:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED BROTHER.
To this day, i was busy gathering gifts for him. Finally~ u've grow up :)
Hope u'll like the 21 birthday present specially cater for u.

Seems like I’ve abandon my blog, but no worries.. I promise to blog those pic up soon. So many things happen recently. Anyway, it's not worth mentioning.
" at time, I wonder... what's tat ppl have in life that i don't n what's do i have in life that they don't? " then I realize... wad I’ve is they won't ever hv it in their life unless mentally was changed.

2009-07-31T14:32:00.001+08:00

Rather busy at work recently after my trip... Promise will upload some of my holiday pic real soon... Sian!!

ACCRUAL again~

2009-07-17T20:23:00.002+08:00

quick update~ taiwan here raining.. dad, mum, didi n auntie they all nw inside " bao wen quan ".. but here i'm over at the biz center going to settle some of my stuffs. ytd, there's a small earthquake over at hualian.. but sad to say, i accompany ZHOU GONG play chess till i didn't even aware! Today is my 3rd day in taiwan, 5 days more to go...

2009-07-13T16:28:00.002+08:00

woke up struggling to open up my eyes & got up from e cozy bed this morning..heard my phone rang w my boss name being sound out loud, saw those gentle rays of sunlight beaming...

1. Counting down, 2 more day to go
2. Busy rushing to complete all my stuffs before I leave for my holiday.
3. Thanks for all the advice from u galz. At else I knew I’m not an IDIOT acting like a FOOL!
4. Wooh~ Thanks buddy, er & ke for ur help in searching up so much info for my travel n being frank to me tat I got a GONG face tat will easily CON by others.
5. Thanks linda, joyce, kelly & vic for the balance Taiwan money~
6. Thanks u 2 for e WONDERFUL SUNDAY.
7. Came to realization that they are actually still the same. Learn how to accept other before you want other to accept you!
8. I knew I’m not being emo-ing, YES I’M NOT. This time round, it finally explode.
9. Learn to respect other before u wan other to respect u, I’m serious about these dude!
10. Don’t dare me unless u hv prepare for the worse.

Between Family & Friends, I wan to hv a balance among it. I luv my family so do my friends.

2009-07-09T15:43:00.002+08:00

counting down~ 6 days more to go~

6
5
4
3
2
1

over n over again!
i dream, i wish, i want, i long, i hope... guess wad? these days finally comes!

1st of all, i'm able to fullfill my mum wishes.

2nd, i'm able to bring dad out of town!

I'm so proud of myself, for e past years, i save and work so hard, nw i finally saw the results. I pay off dad, mum, didi n my tour package to taiwan.. wooh!

I'm still counting~~~

2009-07-08T22:23:00.000+08:00

just don't understand how these people think? y must they goes around blahbbering about others? i think this is totally absurd unless he/she are prejudice against others in the first place. i'm so bad w my temper these few days! this should nt be e way, i should sound HAPPY instead of freaking out~ WAKE UP my dear, ur act is FOOLISH.
- EITHER U R W ME OR AGAINST ME -

2009-06-29T23:43:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling so good n nice :)

so happy! after 2 weeks, which was actually on the 18th.. i'll be bringing my parent n younger bro for a 8d 7n holiday trip~ yeah, this feeling is definitely so much better than staying in sg! wanna noe where r we heading? make a guess~
i've to admit tat no doubt it cost a bomb ( sgd$ 5000.00 included airfare, hotel & 80% of e meal ) but still i'm more than willing to fork out this money in order to bring dad n mum to this country tat they long too :)

went down st jame for ke's advance birthday celebration~ currently down w fever n body ache... hmmm... whatever it is... i'm a happy ger..

2009-06-28T12:14:00.000+08:00

nt sure wad will u be thinking after u read these.. whatever tat comes to ur mind i hope u understand...

yes, it's u... u gotta pick urself up! no one can help u except urself. we all noe tat u hv a choice. make sure u won't regret after making this decision. times fly n human change but e fact is e things i've done so far has nv got an intention to hurt u badly~ haiz...

u're my sunshine . . .

2009-06-21T17:06:00.003+08:00

people judge . . .
criticisms . . .

so wad?
i love myself.
i love wad i'm doing nw, yes! n i realli do.

loads of fun and booze
but still i love myself.
of all the poisonous words and wicked faces... will u still choose to stand by me?jus when i thought i ran out of pain... you words came crashing down on me

again.BUT . . . thanks u my long long friend . . . MR HZ~
" dress urself well, will pick u up @ 7pm, got a surprise for u "
well, this brighten up my days even though we didn't get to meet up in e end...

went down to chinatown n got some travel info, cloth n gifts! soon pang's family will be having a short-gate way trip which i long to hv. hmmmm, taiwan? china? hongkong or...

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!
dad, i love u~
thanks for all ur care, concern, love n every little things u've done in my life~

2009-06-20T06:27:00.004+08:00

Morning~

ha-ha, things just got it right within wad I expected it to be... wad I feel n think now turn out to be e actual! Hey, I read MIND well ok...

~ Action speak louder than words ~

hmmm, I totally agree w is sentence.

I always "SU HOCK" ( ppl out there, u should noe hw to read ba ) those ppl out there who realli SOL n fullfill wad they said. Coz this ppl they do hv their BACKDONE w them~ BUT, at time i do understand tat at e point of time, " lose ppl cannot lose face " wahaha!

YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! PPL OUT THERE, NEED NOT TO TAG ME AND ASK ME WHO THIS PERSON I AM REFERING TOO.. COZ, I SIMPLY WON'T SAY~

- JOKE OF E DAY -

- I KNOW WHAT I WANT -

- DON'T TAKE ME FOR GRANTED -

- U R A LOSER -

- TO BE FRANK, PPL GOT EYE TO SEE, EAR TO HEAR N SENCE TO FEEL -

2009-06-11T20:11:00.000+08:00

Yes, I am an utter IDIOT, STUPID, SHIT n etc…
I’ve don’t have the talent on giving good reason to my answer.
FUCK me then.
This is ridiculous… I feel so stupid. Relationships are always so troublesome!
You can’t be in so much of urself when u oh-so-want too but yet u can’t be always e one receiving and never give out.
I hate people to vent their anger on me when they are frustrated. Contradicting, I am. I knew I lose anger easily too…
I don’t drag everyone with me when I’m down. I’m not a selfish bitch. To follow or not, it’s your prerogative.
But don’t complain on whatever decision you made. Neither I nor someone else can pull the trigger. If u can’t continue to do what u’ve once done, then don’t ever do it. Or it’s just because it’s new and fresh? Feel so sick and tired with those million of reason u gave.
ONLY u CAN, but OTHERs can’t.

At first, really think u r someone tat understand me most, but….. I am wrongly totally… Something should done over here but I knew u r not going to do anything… Then LET’S DRAG ON.. My heart die slowly whenever things happen.

2009-06-10T17:08:00.000+08:00

I desperately need a short gate-way.
Feeling so suffocated here in Singapore, jus wanted to leave for a couple of days to take a breather.
Have not been blogging promptly and I don’t even noe where to start off..
Something is wrong “MAYBE” w me, and I don’t know what! I don’t enjoy doing things I like anymore… Don’t feel like seeing ppl I luv anymore.. I would rather gave those ppl 1-2 words reply else I’ll get myself into trouble.
Where are those attention span and tolerance once used to have? At time, things jus grow so frustrating tat I really feel like tearing n minutes later I wondered what’d e matter w me?
I feel that e ppl closest to me don’t understand me at all! Don’t care about me anymore.

A FEELING ONCE SO FAMILIAR!

2009-06-09T16:53:00.002+08:00

who's e one hving neg tot? y being so sentitive n can't even accept other comments? haiz, waiting for e day to come! i'm asking myself hw long more i've to drag on~

wad i use to hv i no longer hv it. i miss those day when HE treat me nice. bring me to places i've nt went n take care of me like her little ger. remember me on my future n many holidays~ i think i still . . . . .

2009-06-07T06:08:00.002+08:00

Come accross this article:

Can Men And Women Be Friends?

Possible to hv an opposite sex friendship but you cannot compromise certain borders:

1. No late night dinners together. You can hv lunch tgt in a public place but u should nt order alcoholic beverages. " The embers of attraction really can grow in situations like tat & suddenly it's nt so innocent, it's nt friendship anymore, " Rabbi Shmuley says.

2. You can't take long drives or long flights w e other person, even if it's for work.
" Even if u hv to work w a colleague [ of e opposite sex ], there r still certain boundaries u need to preserve "

3. You cannot place urself in any situation where romance can grow. " Romance grows when ppl r alone; romance grows when ppl tell secrets. "

4. You can't share secrets w a platonic male or female friend that you don't share with you spouse.

5. You should not be friend with ex-lovers.

For additional articles on male/female friendships, click HERE

What you think? Can men and women just be friends?

Hmmmm, like what author " Rabbi Shmuley " mentioned, it is possible BUT there are so many barriers and restrictions, just in case both the both of you fall into the trap.. So, advise NOT.....

2009-06-05T12:43:00.003+08:00

I stared blankly at nothing for the longest time I ever did. I don’t know how to react and what to do next. I just realized, it took 3 sentences to end something once so beautiful.

I guess I could only write, cause arguing with you hurt me bad and kill my brain cell. Smiles turned into signs, hug turned cold, you make me feel so small and invisible. I am too weak for you. Maybe I don’t even know what is it that I want, my heart screaming, but my mind wants to let you go.

I’ll smile in the end, cause I feel tired, real hard to make it work.

At that moment, no words were needed…

Jason comment:

There’s pain/hope in your eyes reading
“ I’m waiting for e day to come “ . . .

2009-06-04T14:08:00.004+08:00

I didn’t realized how dangerous, scary, cheapo a person's character can be until I saw the side of him/her.
Blinded by the pride, the greed n etc... I’m scared of u, afraid to be near u, not willing to hear from u. Now I finally know and I regret what I’ve done for u. I HATE U for wad you’ve done... Irritating fact which I can’t ignore was e " MISS u " n now again...
Especially those things that you've said and promise that it won’t happen again. BUT still~~

Then here come your " can’t help it, only ask, I did nothing theory " You'll hv ur million reason to the answer. Ask urself, why am I so insecure?

Making others problem become urs problem... [ this is wad u r good at! ]

Anyway, remember this n drill it in mind!

THERE IS ONLY 2 PROBLEM IN THIS WORLD.
1ST IS UR PROBLEM, 2ND IS MINE PROBLEM.
PLEASE DON'T MAKE UR PROBLEM BECOME MY PROBLEM
&
U CAN REST ASSURE THAT I WON'T TURN MY PROBLEM BECOME URS.

This time, is really not within my tolerating abilities to swallow this down…
I mean these are the actions your love one does to make you feel special isn’t it? What meaning does it holds if you do it to every other girl.

Come on, people… Please tell me I’m not acting crazy and it’s normal to feel so… Don’t you think so?

2009-06-03T23:29:00.003+08:00

a lot of times i asked myself is it worth it? or just another period of actions n talks . . .
n each time i insist my trust in him!

&

today he prove me right, all my hard work did not gone into waste.

I'M PROUD OF MY YOUNGER BRO, HE PASS HIS INTERVIEW AND GOT INTO LASELLE!

2009-05-21T18:01:00.000+08:00

honey moon period is always sweet isnt it...
a lot of times i asked myself is it real?
or just another honeymoon period actions n talks...
n each time ive proven right!
its all abt initial sweet talk.guys r always like that...

2009-05-17T14:54:00.001+08:00

ONE OF THE FEW I'VE MET SO FAR. WELL DONE FOR WHAT'S THAT HAS BEEN DONE AND THUMB UP!

2009-05-03T07:08:00.001+08:00

A day of . . .

A day of moodiness. Very moody. No one seems to understand how I feel. No one at all. What's I'm doing? I'm kinda like thinking a lot now. Big disappointment I had. Boring? Stoning? Aimlessly? Now's my turn to disappear. Bye~

2009-05-01T02:01:00.001+08:00

SUCCESS vs HAPPINESS

You've got a car, a job, a boyfriend/girlfriend - but, somehow you're still not contented.

Growing up, what was it that makes you happy? Status? Lover? Getting high pay? Buying a car? These rites of passage read like a checklist and you tick them off, are almost guaranteed to put a genuine smile on you. But when you look a little deeper, you may find true happiness doesn't stem from the car you drive or the amount on your account but, rather, from within. And, as circumstances changes, so does wha tyou want out of life.

In such cases, this explain why I live my life to the fullest, I don't know when I won't be able to enjoy anymore... I would rather play when I'm young.. I don't want to grow older but I've got no other choice and if I would have a choice I would want to stay young.. How I wish my short gateway is just tmr cos I hate waiting!

SUCCESS IS NOT THE KEY TO HAPPINESS. HAPPINESS IS THE KEY TO SUCCESS. IF YOU LOVE WHAT YOU ARE DOING, YOU WILL BE SUCCESSFUL.

2009-04-27T02:27:00.000+08:00

PING EXPLAIN - SUCCESSFUL

Having a favorable outcome?
Having something u desired or intended?
Having achieved wealth or eminence?

Financially independent and having a great career is how I define SUCCESSFUL. Although ppl out there might think or feel tat I've sacrifice alot of stuffs in my life to got to where I'm currently but I don't regret anything at all. Knowing wad I did was right and i proceed w it no matter wad problems i encounter. While planning a holiday n having a social life are within my control.

2009-04-25T02:10:00.001+08:00

PING EXPLAIN - HAPPINESS

I think HAPPINESS is a state of mind. To me, HAPPINESS is... something tat i'll be able to get tgt with my family, hang out with the right companions, eat good food, drink n chilled at else where tat r comfortable chatting/pouring out tots, freedom to do things tat i wanted, self fulfillment by achieving task and being proud of myself plus a holiday is definitely is something tat i luv most!

Found this quote meaningful :-

You will never be happy if you continue to search for what HAPPINESS consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.

2009-04-20T15:04:00.001+08:00

Am i trying to be magnanimous or what? I always listen. Listen to his complaints, his feedback, his advice n etc… Give him suggestions n even worried when he told me what had happened. But what have I got back at the end of day? Am I suppose to be treated like this? NO, isn’t it? It's normal to react like this right? Tell me I’m normal.

But when I heard him say… I felt a slight pain in my heart. Still, I smiled as a sign of relief.

Weekend. A very normal and boring day. But my normal boring Sunday became so "happening" at night. Guess only I’ll find it "happening" lah. Ha-ha..

And hor, thanks all friends for your "concern". But please stop asking me the same questions.. as per normal, jus ppl.. as insignificant as I’m to them. All I can do was to give, but all I asked for is someone just to listen. Not implying what you think on me. U ppl r e ones responsible if my world ever collapse. Maybe someday, I really will think tat this world doesn’t accept happy ending.. yea, if that what u wish for. UNFAIR!

2009-04-14T16:40:00.002+08:00

When he/she is not answering calls or replying smses. It means that person don't wana anyone to find him/her or he/she could be busy. Can't one take a break sometimes?

Remember no one owe anyone any explanation for things he/she does. Personally, I hate those who try all means to contact me. Whether i'm blocking your email, MSN or not answering ur call, IT'S MY PROBLEM!

Some people don't even understand such a simple logic, what kind of person they call themselves? Just wana satisfy their own curiosity on what's happening. I don't like the way people are connected. It links everyone to everyone.

GIMME SOME SPACE LAH! I DON'T HAVE TO REPORT EVERYTHING TO ANYONE. PLEASE understand why someone behave like this. Times when you know you can't tell someone everything because soon not later she will lick out the new to the other person who is close to her too. LOL! What a BIG JOKE!

2009-04-10T11:52:00.001+08:00

Today is Good Friday.

Enjoy your day people :)

I'm satisfied with what i have now.

As long as my family is with me, everything is all worth it.

2009-04-05T13:55:00.001+08:00

I dreamt of u again last night, woke up and think for a few mins.. Realise you've actually gone, gone forever. It's always so hard to accept the fact. I don't wish to dream of you again because i know when i'm awake my heart ache..

The fact is, you've gone to somewhere that nobody know. Gal, we miss u!

2009-03-30T15:50:00.000+08:00

Saw this some time ago.. and i like it.

Isn't it cute?

Do you agree? To me, life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forward.

2009-03-17T13:33:00.000+08:00

do u think tattoo is cool?

wait till you see this... tattoos r no longer e in thing anymore among the youths...

so wats the hype now?...

SKIN CARVING!!!

no longer r e inks impt... basically they will just carve out ur skin~!

i can never ever do that to myself...

2009-03-16T16:25:00.002+08:00

I want to find a guy:-

who calls me beautiful instead of hot,
who calls me back when i hang up on him,
who will lie under e stairs n listen to my heartbeat,
or will stay awake jus to watch me slp…
wait for e boy who kisses my forehead,
who want to show me off to e world when i'm in sweats,
who hold my hand in front of his friends,
who thinks i'm jus as pretty w/o makeup on.

One who is constantly reminding me of how much he cares n hw lucky he’s to hv ME.
The one who turns to his friends and say, THAT HER…

R u e one?
Answer = NO

2009-03-15T16:03:00.003+08:00

Rain rain go away~ Few more hrs & i'm going to attend a wedding dinner!
Wad u think about this?

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

You Are Charming and Eloquent

You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems.Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

2009-03-13T10:56:00.001+08:00

So damn bloody pissed off!
I've a sudden urge of cutting my hair NOW. I realize I always love to cut my hair when I'm troubled / unhappy or sad...
Seriously I don’t know what’s wrong w me nowadays. Things just don’t goes well for me.
YES! everything!
REALITY is.... if I make mistakes, I get scolded, get hurt, get pin-point on, get drill into others mind, hv a couple of hiccups here n there. All I need is someone to be there to help me through it but not e way treated like above.

- 10 Facts About Me -

1) Sleeping beauty
( Tired almost every day even with 17 hours of sleep )
2) Bad temper
( Wad u ppl think? Someone comment this on me a lot! )
3) Laugh out loud and my laugher is horrible
( All my friend noe about this )
4) Awfully busy life
( My record is 20hrs working non-stop )
5) Food
( I love to eat. Ha-ha )
6) Homely girl
( Don’t puke when you see this, but I know I am..... )
7) Demanding gf?
( Ask my bf or I should say those tat have been tgt w me b4? Ha-ha 野蛮女友, some may find it cute but some find it SPECIAL )
8) Lots of "hand" actions when I speak
( You know... Ha-ha Madness )
9) Leading my own life
( I’m who I’m. Your approval isn’t needed )
10) Emo
( -_-" )

Min tag me to do this quiz. It's really very difficult. I realize I don’t know myself well. So friends, do you think my "10 facts about me" is what you think of me too?

2009-03-12T14:21:00.000+08:00

Surprise . . . Pretty true about me! Wad u think?

Women is emotional, affectionate. She’s capable of tearing down e past in order to rebuild for e future, She has an air of mystery, could he psychic, and she is a living lie detector. It’s best to tell her the truth , no matter what the circumstances. She’ll find out, anyway! She is dynamic, explosive, and has a temper. But she is also exciting and fiercely loyal. Don’t seek a relationship with this woman unless you are strong, willing to make mental – emotional adjustments – and have a genuine respect for members of the opposite sex. She doesn’t want to be patronized.

They wants the facts, wants to know where it’s at, wants to know how much money is in the bank and what the future prospects are. She can lose her temper one minute and resemble a purring kitten the next. She can lead you a dizzying pace. She is physically attractive; she is hard to let go of-and you could become addicted to Her. She can be forceful, dominating; and she also can be stubborn. But above all, she is warm and can make a man so HAPPY that he’ll forget the word “trouble” s even in the dictionary.

2009-03-10T12:50:00.000+08:00

放手了，我累了。
I really need a break from all this shit.

2009-03-09T16:51:00.000+08:00

life is unpredictable. cherish wad we have in life now. be it matters or people.
I've alr lost mine.

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* R.I.P, you'll always be missed by me *

2009-03-08T23:51:00.000+08:00

Sitting by the window, looking at the pouring rain.
It reminds me of hw HE shielded me from e rain everytime we were out shopping or stop over whenever he fetch me w his bike.. I really wondered if our relationship is such fragile. Looking back at e first time we met. The usual hangout. The first conversation we had. How we exchange numbers. The first time HE take care of me when I was sick. I reminisced. What I used to say,
" tears are dropped, memories are left behind "..

2009-03-06T15:39:00.000+08:00

E first time im doing this after being…. Called? Because it was by my friend. ENJOY!

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
- Preferably before 25 – 26.

2. What I want the most now?
- Win 4D or ToTo since that’s e fastest way to see no. jumping in account. ( but too bad, I nv buy )
- My dad feeling more happier
- Didi enroll into either one of the art school
- More sales for the company
- Stable relationship w my boy ( I wanted it so much )

3. Who is the person you trust most?
- Beside myself, that would be my daddy.

4. Do you think u have enough confidence?
- Eh, 15% more to enough, I would say I need more in certain aspect.

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
- Family trip to Taiwan ( dad n mum wanted to go honeymoon there but no chance L )

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- I don’t fancy rainbow. Too bad L

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
- All the lovely ppl in my live. No man can live alone.

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
- No, a lifetime is never infinite. Soon we will die eventually.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
- Usually, e person would confess to me first. ( jus like wad baby does, sweet n lovely )

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged/called you.
- Sweet, quiet & joker

11. What are the requirement that you wish from you’re the other half?
- Trusting and compromising. With these, any other concerns are possible,

12. What would you say if you previous partner ask you again?
- Better by far you should forget and smile than you should remember and be sad.

13. Do you cherish every single of your friendship?
- I do and I hope they do too.

14. Do you believe in God?
- I believe there is a possibility.

15. What do you see in your future?
- Entangle in the complicated society.

16. Do you find it a need for you to have a bf/gf
- It’s nv a need to hv one but a need to hv a particular someone. In fact, it’s jus a bonus.

17. At this point of time, would u rather stay in your comfort zone or try something new?
- Try something new, I dislike a stagnant lifestyle

18. What kind of friend you hope to be in your friend eyes?
- Hmmm, whom I see them as mine.

19. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
- Haiz, my TEMPER! Stop acting like a princess. Because e society is never like home.

20. What’s your weak point?
- TEMPER lor

Instruction: Tag 3 people in your list. List them out at the end of this post. Notify. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.
Er, Liz, Sharon?

2009-03-05T11:13:00.002+08:00

blank blank blank
I seriously have no idea why am i here but since i'm here, i might as well blog about what am i thinking lately yeh. Perhaps that's my purpose but i didn't even know that. Whatever cause I actually don't feel like blogging now but too many things to share, can't help it.
- human w leg but can't walk -
my feel for the time being..

2009-03-04T12:33:00.001+08:00

too much work undone, sometimes they haunt my dreams! :(
when overwhelming becomes the lead, I turn to an escapist!
When the going gets tough, the tough gets going!
" friends will never be there 24/7, but family & spouse will " I never really wish to agree to what you once told me, but now I understand that totally. only people who claps your hand, will there be sound made and they are the only ones who will hold on to your hand to prevent any hope from slipping through your small hands and fingers.
Here u r, e past of me, remember the cheap talks?

Awaiting for my NEW LIFE~

2009-03-03T13:33:00.000+08:00

Awfully busy life. School gonna get busy all the way till next year! Just a mere 1 month and we’re bombarded with :
- Storyboarding
- Audio Editing
- Transformations
- Typography
- Mobile Flash Lite
- I clone Project
- And more……

A good laugh and a long sleep are the two best cures in the doctor’s book! I found my key to change… is to let go of my fear! I’m counting the seconds till you break the silence, so please just break the silence. Can we do all things together? If only I know you’ll make my days better. If I could make things go right again. Best thing about it is we’re not fighting, tell me if things will only get better?

2009-03-02T20:17:00.000+08:00

When it’s Time to go, it’s Time to go…

All my previous posts may seems funny and interesting, but there are always sadness and pain behind each entry. However, this is what I’ve always reminded myself when posting an entry – “ Choose to remember the good and forget about the bad. “ So you guys should try to practice it too.

2009-03-01T14:15:00.000+08:00

What Colour Am I?

Sms send by my friend to me~ the question goes like this:
what color am i, in your eye?

1. white - someone who meant a lot to you
2. blue - someone who is very practical
3. green - someone you think of occasionally
4. yellow - someone you won't forget
5. red - the person u hate
6. orange - some who can be trust as a friend
7. pink - sex partner
8. purple - your love one

got this sms this morning from a green friend of mine! thought it might mean nothing but after u send the reply it mean something to someone!

2009-02-28T23:11:00.001+08:00

recently, erm... how should I phrase it?

Do I still love?
Yes, but I’m getting weaker, the more I ask the more answers I got the more disappointing I’m getting in the relationship. I’m simply too jealous & tired! I hope I wasn't like this all the time but things just keep getting back to me.

Do I still care?
Yes, but how much am I allow to care?

Where is my limit?
I don't want to find out yet I don't want to know so soon.

Are you thinking of ending it?
Yes, occasionally. Whenever, I lost confidence in myself!

Are you happy to be together?
Extremely!

Do you think he love you as much as you love him?
I don't have a certain answer. Even though he said he do but is that because of some other factors that make him love me now and not forever.

Are you ready for the change?
NO. I don't want to change... to the worst!

Do you want to know the truth?
Maybe.... Yes I want to know. But I scare I’ll tie more end knots that will present in me and in this relationship.

Will you accept the truth?
I won't know what is the truth! Can I choose to believe what I was told is real?

Do you think u are noob / newbie
I’m in a mature relationship like this. I couldn't differentiate at all!

Do you still want to be his side?
Maybe. I’m not sure! I don't know when is the right time to leave? Or should I ever think about it at all? Yes I want to be with him only if he’s e one for my rest of life!

2009-02-27T14:37:00.002+08:00

Sorry I haven’t been updating religiously! I think I lost the momentum to blog, Ha-ha! Wait till I find it and pics will be up, promise! (:
So.............
lately my life's been kind of hectic. A little bit of a rollercoaster ride, maybe. I finally found the courage to mend or face all problem, just a few weeks ago before I ask dad on how life going on for the past years, his reply SHOCK me up-side-down! Thank God that I’ve you once my daddy! Bcos dissolving tat kind of barrier or matters bet it’s really meant a lot to him. I cried my heart out whenever he remind me with his words, it really hurt me to know he had to go thru so much. I've been talking to people and thinking just as much, about how unpredictable and fragile life is. And I never could come up with a conclusion. Is it worth working damn hard for a future now, when you're not even sure you're guaranteed one? What if you die tomorrow but all yr life, you've never had fun or lived a life proper? How'd you define proper then?
Anyway, I’m a lot better these days. My emotions aren’t pulling me apart anymore and that’s good. Alright, I’ll update again soon, a lively post k! Later (:

2009-02-26T22:05:00.003+08:00

Do you let other people define your beauty or let it shown through your within?

After talking to didi, i felt much happier. Haiz, i guess only he, dad n a few more understand hw i really feel!

Madness, i was kind/stupid enough to let a few of my clients holding on to the payment term. Ended up losing 11k of the job! What's more i can do since they have already declear " Bankruptcy " . . .

Indeed bro make my day by sending me this 2 pic taken over at TAIWAN!

2009-02-26T21:59:00.006+08:00

Until the day if you face all the mistkes you've made,
you'll never change.
People can change, but they don't.
They just don't because it's easier not to! Haiz...

Don't waste time talking or asking me to do things. Cause talking to me is as good as talk to a,

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YES!
It's as good as a talking to e WALL.
So, don't ever bother.

2009-02-25T21:50:00.001+08:00

Nothing much to blog! But have you ppl heard about the 13 year old father? If not, please do so now. READ!
This is something new and shocking to me. Recalling back… When I was 13, what am I doing? Haiz, just imagine how scary kids are nowadays. My Goodness!

2009-02-23T09:10:00.000+08:00

What in the world are you thinking? Actions shows ignorance, words shows spike. Hit by such hard words worst to know its from you. Sometimes i hope my eyes can see through! Which is the real you? You got me all wrapped by with you slashing words with a hit, hit real hard and now i'm left there not knowing whats going on. Sometimes, you're unbelievable.

2009-02-21T22:06:00.000+08:00

I miss the past, i miss the way you used to dote me so much.
I miss your love that you once showered me.
I don't even know that things will be back that way...
Hoping and praying...

P.S: I miss the way you once love me.

2009-02-19T11:02:00.000+08:00

I'm so stress up by you, this few days.

I need the secure please! Giving up better or not ?

2009-02-17T10:58:00.001+08:00

I am so bloody stressed with my assignments! I haven’t been sleeping more than 5hrs for the past 2 days.
And I’m not even 20% done with the 2nd one!

2009-02-16T23:49:00.000+08:00

People don't jus come and go in my life. They leave me memorable memories. I remember everything lil bits of them.. Thanks

2009-02-12T16:37:00.000+08:00

Tonight...
My world came crashing down on me suddenly. Would you tell the truth if it would hurt someone close to you? Or would you rather shut up?

2009-02-11T20:34:00.000+08:00

Disappointment and Fatigue
I'm so disappointed and tired. Don't wish to talk about it now.
I'm now officially a time bomb that might detonate anytime.
Anyway, thing happened for a reason! No doubt i knew it was disturbing train of thought. Not just disturbing, but it was really nerve wracking .Sigh.

2009-02-01T22:38:00.000+08:00

I've been so strained and busy the last few weeks. Guess I'll won't hv any update on the stuff about the past week now, even though I'm supposed to do work instead. Just don't have the drive to, I've got too many thoughts running through my head.

2009-01-23T01:04:00.002+08:00

Suffering from cough n sore throat nw. E ultimate combo package. Can someone spell BORING? I cannot believe i've clean up my house preparing for the CNY. YIP... within hrs.. Finally! Few more days towards CNY, but dunno y? My mood has nt turn to it yet. Work n studies has been keep me busy like hell~ Plus some bo liao stuff . . . Hope everything can end ASAP.

2009-01-19T18:38:00.002+08:00

4 working days to CNY.
29 working days to my leave.
41 days to my flight outta Spore.
I can't wait to leave...........!!!!

2009-01-15T14:24:00.001+08:00

RECENTLY...
I've been giving myself lots of excuses to avoid problem hitting on me...
Every now n then, I'll tell my friends, parents or etc. . .
" I think I still need time on this, I think I still need to focus on that, I think I'm short of this, Hmmmm... I think I still got one last thing have yet to be done.. “
These are all excuses I know!! ( max, thks for ur listening ear )
I'm getting real paranoid over all the problem I face! Be it at home, outside or at work?
Mum just insist on her ways of doing things. N she’s really out of my hand/control.
Her debts, house bills, own settlement ( insurance, bills n etc… ), my baby loan n expenses, saving for didi study & WORSE still, support her whenever she finish her monthly pay.
4D, Toto n where e hell she spend her money? I’ve no idea.
New year coming n I am home alone w all the house work, cleaning n etc… Not complaining, didi in camp, sis got own house to maintain n I am e only one left.

2009-01-12T16:03:00.001+08:00

Bloody pissed off with Hotmail AGAIN.

I wonder what's wrong with it nowaday? Can't access my mails at all & i hv important mail to open! Really angry cos it has been going on for 3 f***i*g days!!

ARGH! Sian....

2009-01-10T02:19:00.000+08:00

i don't understand y these ppl r so fxxk up? say, ask but do la! well, can't be blame.

2009-01-08T21:33:00.006+08:00

I'll list all the Accidents I've seen on the road THIS week..

Tuesday - 1 Accident
- Roundabout at West Coast. Taken place right infront of me. 2 cars involved.

Thursday - 1 Accident
On BUKIT MERAH VIEW OPEN-AIR CAR PARK
1 cars & 1 lorry involved.

What happened??!!
My car kanna knock for nothing. My baby is currently in ICU w his broken hand n ear. Haiz~~ All drivers, let's be careful when driving alright.. =) Ask me if you wanna noe in details...

Btw, any inspirations on this for 4D? Haha..

2009-01-03T19:05:00.000+08:00

been busy and no time to blog!

2009-01-01T15:57:00.000+08:00

My Resolution For Year 2009

1. Good health & gd luck to all my family members.
2. Saving for e year at else a 20k. ( i had save a 30k in 2 & 1/2yr but i spend it all up! sch fees 11k ( balance 8k more ), my baby 15k, house reno & etc... 8k )
3. Quit smoking.
4. Delivered a strong 09 performance relative to the competition and market for REGALZ.
5. Win 4D or Toto. ( but i seldom buy )
6. PASS w good grades for my studies.
7. Earn more money.. A better bright future for my parents n myself.
8. Enroll didi to NAFA.
9. Pay increment after CNY.. or else i am going to run.. Haha, joking!!
10. Big fat bonus ( think abit hard lei... )
11. Every people Huat Ar!

Happy new year 2009!!

2008-12-27T03:49:00.000+08:00

E one who is able to walk through life with me, go through all odds with me, is able to withstand the hardships that life brings to me & most importantly, b faithful to me, understand me & love me ultimately...

2008-12-25T17:26:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS ~

Jingle Bell.. Jingle Bell...

2008-12-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

Met up with my didi for dinner, shopping and pass auntie a CD. Since ming is back from camp, we shall then discuss abit on my company promo stuff.. I love meeting my didi! Throughout the few hours, he was nagging on everything n anything. About car, company, study, relationship, family members and a lot more.

1st – IMM. Collection on the Christmas gifts for the old folks this coming Sunday and didi got a gift for yipo too.
2nd – Suggested by didi to Pacific Plaza ( I think so ba ) which located just beside DFS. Clever boy bring jiejie up to choose his Christmas present which cost me a BOMB. ( SGD$ 165 for a pair of limited edition Nike shoes. Well, to be frank, he didn’t ask for it.. Jus tat I knew he love it and he didn’t brought any shoes from his previous Taiwan trip. )
3rd – Far East to shop for some gift for my 2 cousin. Didi got each of them a t-shirt which I think it’s COOL. N again, he got himself 2 pcs as well.
4th – Headed to auntie house n settled our dinner over there. Pizza Hut! My bro all time fav.
5th – Home Sweet Home for me but didi meeting his friend at east coast.

2008-12-14T19:30:00.000+08:00

After a year of hard work.. I decided to take a break..
Forget about financial management..
I'll crash my wallet just for this month!!
There are some of the major damages.. Will upload pic on my damages dame soon! But… present are for all the old folks. Since I only did this once or twice in a year, I will try to do the best I can.

A friend ask me n linda this question. Y r u gals spending so much on this event? If I will u I would rather spend it on my branded stuff.

Answer reply :-
If a thousand dollar can buy me a branded bag n I would be happy, I would rather take this thousand dollars to make a group of old folks happy. I understand this don’t apply to everyone but again u hv no right to stop us from doing this. At else I know what goes around come around.

Busy w all the preparation. But still I enjoy the process…

2008-12-10T12:26:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I did something I wouldn't ever have thought of doing in this entire life of mine. The very second I did it, I regretted it so much. But living in this world, sometimes you gotta do things not because you want to, but because you have to. I had to. I had to say things I didn't want to say, things I didn't even mean. I had to be nasty while my heart was being torn into shreds. Hearing those words, looking at that face. I can't believe how dumb we were to actually quarrel over someone else. It might seem irrelevant to uninvolved parties, but I have absolutely NO CLUE how a certain ppl home can continue rotting themselves like this. And to think I was supposedly described as "be patience"? What this is? Describe it to me, because I DON’T KNOW. If only u can stop e worry n getting FAN over his issues, then tat e onli time I can rest assure as well. Haiz… Why our relationship always hv to be so cool?

Anyway, actions speak louder than words. Hope by giving in or be PATIENCE abit will come to a win win situation.

2008-12-08T12:25:00.000+08:00

wooh. Spend ¾ of my weekend rushing up my sch work. YES, yours truly finally get more n more interested in de sch work. Feeling so much better now. After all, it had been 2 months since I got myself back to sch again. Well, I must say a big thks to Eunice~ Ur msg brightens up my day.
“ Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened. “