i've not been updating for ages. it'd been like 1 yrs plus i suppose. everything had been the same. i'm still suffering from all those pain that i previously encountered. it'd always been me. friends around me would have know how much i've gone through and how much i've cried. not of use at all. really is WHAT THE FUCK! i came to understand that i cannot trust in anything now. whatever you says but the outcome is.... otherwise. sometime feel like slapping myself awake. asking myself what i'm doing. i mean no point la ...... promise to:- give in, dote me, share problem, love me like before, dun quarrel with me, where is all this?