and i'm leading it my way.

Friday, June 30, 2006

well, i feel so fxxked up nw if only i know what's e reason behind.. i'm living in darkness these days.. yes, if u realize it, i'm starting to drift away from some pals of mine. find them rather fake.. alright, i truly understand no one is perfect in this world. oh ya, friends & family of my surrounding, don't pity for my sickness pls. i know couple of u came telling me be strong, must remember to take medicine & etc... but come on, i don't deserve to face such cruel happening.. no pain, no gain! i gained big lessons n i learnt to be smart enough to handle those tricks tat others gonna surprise me.. remember to whoever including my beloved, don't pity me for anythings coz i never need sympathy!

at times, i'm glad i've him by my side to cheer me up, making me smile & letting me bully like hell.. he has been so sweet & i luv peeping at him whenever he's asleep.. i'm hard to handle in nature, but he change e facts tat i'm like this nw. simply treasure e days with him.. awaiting for our rom, flat, marriage & etc...

♥ 1:21 AM

Thursday, June 29, 2006

anyway, i just got back from town. went to my friend's birthday @ devils! saw all my old sch mates.. miss my gals so much. actually intended to meet linda they all at momo but end up stright hm due to my tiredness! so long never chiong le, cannot make it anymore! can't admit that i'm old le -_-"

nevertheless, i can't deny tat my luv for hubby is increasing each days. e luv and care he gave was unmetered. I really really appreciate it & I have no idea how can I ever repay u but maybe by staying at your side, no matter wad happen. saying those words to u everytime was as hard for me, as it was for u to listen.. but, I can't let this go on seeing u slacking & attitude at time. I feel tat u need to know e truth, it's time to move on to e next level in life. quarrel after quarrel .. i'm really tired. please put a ending here. its hard to forget, i know, but let's us use our wonderful moments to cover all this... im totally addicted to u.. once & again, i luv u my hubby.. can't wait for our house, our baby, our future!!

♥ 3:44 AM

Thursday, June 15, 2006

I do luv my Hubby Dearly... He mean e world to mi... I cherish e days i spend with him... SianZzz... Well can anyone tell mi... How can we make decision that we wont regret in life? Sometimes its so hard to decide... Dunno which way to go is right for us and once you taken the path there is no way for u to return... Life is so hard ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...

Because of her, i lose... Yes, indeed i'm scare.. Assure? Simple life? Her appear all this words disappear.. I hate being lonely! I miss my gals so much.. I miss those days! What i can say is, Fxxk off in my life and don't ever appear!

♥ 11:44 PM

Thursday, June 08, 2006

No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have to face. All i need to remember is that he'll never let me down; he'll never let me be pushed past my limit; he'll always be there to help me come through it. He told me he won't look down on my sickness and i hope he'll also promise with wad he said. And i TRUST and BELIEVE with him..

♥ 5:07 PM

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

sometimes I wonder what is happening between us.

we'll never get down to quarrel with anything, i hope we would just let it go and be ok after that. know wad, i still love him as much as i do in the past..

luv you hubi...

so sorry, you've to take care of yourself whenever i'm not around. my life would definitely not goes better without u. thanks for everything you given me..

♥ 4:24 PM

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Its been quite a few days since i write my blog. Dunno y this few days keep on thinking of wat i have been through with him. It started from the day i was with him n i had to bear with whatever rumors or look tat ppl will give mi when i saw my friends. YES, i choose it, i choose to be with u n to give up my friends. Be it they feel that I'm in the right or i am wrong, but i dun care cos wat i want now is a guy whom can set up a small family with mi and company throughout the rest of my life time. Maybe u think tat its nothing, but for mi its something cos i feel tat i did make my own sacrifice and i dun wan it to go down the drain for nothing and i do treasure his presence.

Thinking or find tat I'll scold him becos he's notti or unreasonable. Like i say, if things tat u dunno or dun understand, I'll try to bear with it n explain, but if he's reasonable then i will not hesitate to ROAR everything out. Everytime after i let go at him, i realli feel bad n hurt, especially when i say those words, tears in me, i feel even more hurt in my heart. Knowing i'm stubborn but still push me to the max and force me to say out all those words. My stubborn r built over the years since i'm young so its a challenge to me to overcome it.

Well, more then happy after blogging.. I rude my own life. Accept me as who I'm n luv me as who. U r the 1st guy, i being so truth n luv so much.. I don't regret doing anything jus to see a smile falling on your face. Good memories are always kept within my mind n i wish those bad one who fated away ASAP. I don't wish to live my life in pain anymore. Missing my daddy & mummy right now.. Tear rolling down with those unexplained; e desires in me is ending soon!

♥ 4:00 PM