and i'm leading it my way.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

n e v e r b e t h e s a m e a g a i n

♥ 6:37 PM

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

I'm on my own! No one can hear my screams inside my deadly heart but I'm screaming my lungs out for it will be my last scream!

I don't know how I spent my days. Every day was work, work, work, school, school and work. That's basically my life's about recently. Time to stop this lifestyle. I’ve to find more sales n job in order hold myself and my family up. With money, at least i won't be so bored yea.

It's late night and I'm yet to sleep. Well, always appears to be in the late night. My mind is full of him. ♥ Thinking how can I improve in being a good gf as he always claimed or hint I'm not. I don't know why but I'm trying to understand. Have so many things in mind. Regardless of job, friends, relationship.. etc.. I think I'm bad at handling stuffs n sometimes I just feel like throwing everything aside just don't bother.

Recently, I've hurt someone and myself as well. However, on the way home, many thoughts came through my mind. Life is so short, don't regrets w wad u’ve done. It's you tat made this decision and makes it extraordinary. No matter wad happen in the end, I lead my own life. Never in your precious life listen to others and let them choose e way of life. Don't know what I'm talking about but just having this kind of feelings struggling inside me.

♥ 3:14 PM

Monday, November 24, 2008

It'd been a busy week. I'm totally drained. Every morning when I wake up for work, I dont feel fresh! Help needed for my aching leg & back?! Off day seems so far away from me.... Oh Gosh, When can I stop working and stay at home "shake leg". I must be dreaming. BIG BIG YAWN!~

♥ 3:33 PM

Sunday, November 23, 2008

You treated me like a princess n took veri gd care of me all these while. From wiping my sweat while i'm busy, fanning or blowing some wind to me when I feel so warm, carrying all e stuffs n bag making me feel so free n easy, covering me w the blankets, finding times jus to accompany my family members, spending time w me by teaching me on my sch work, always give me e best etc, etc... Too many to list it down. But all this small small automatic actions from u realli fills n warmed my heart.

Jus a simple word to describe these feeling = LOVE.
Thanks for all e LOVE u've been giving all this while. Appreciate it!

U might nt know, u might nt notice, u might nt even realise tat i've always been looking out for u in silence. R u online? If u're there or even i've been observing ur mood. R u happy or upset? Hence, all this come to e end telling me tat i do CARE.

I treasure all moments spending w u!

♥ 10:34 PM

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Again no pics.. just feel like blogging.. needed some comment frm my readers and frens.. shld i join my friends for a "short" trip to japan in Mar' 09? LOL. I mean i jus got myself a car, jus started my sch n nw again spend $$ for holiday.. Argh~

Anyway jus finish my BIG day last wk. My 1st time celebrating it w my family. Special thanks to my dad n mum coz they really help up alots n nt forgetting ah bin & his family members. Plus my birthday cake from dunno where was deellliiicciiioouuss. Thanks Joyce for e cake ( cost SGD$ 284.00 ) n sis hard work ordering it. And thanks to didi, auntie, buddy, jen, er, ke & everyone for the wonderful gifts and AP.

Well I've finally secured 2 desired job; supply monthly stickers n some print-out for a foreign bank! Damn I'm so lucky this time round. Turn over is high plus i hope i can request person in charge to commit these job to a yr contract. Tired n going to collapse soon but it's still worth it.
Many numbers = Many job = Many money
Ok thats all! =D

P.S. Some ppl is just so fucking childish.. Like 10 years back?? WHAHAHA! Omg I cant believe such ppl still exist.. pls.. GET A LIFE!! LOL.

♥ 11:31 AM

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Thks for ur comments.. Say all u wan, n u noe who u r.. Madness

♥ 11:45 PM

Monday, November 10, 2008

A Victory, A Trophy?
or
Something tat u think u can't lose out?
There is no game . . . Show me what you've won.
Only left with monster energy, no more others, promise. No more next time :)

Was out w xiaozi to town last fri. Talk about so many things and it seems never ending. I always feel better & happy after talking to her. Always having the same thinking and problem. The next moment would be, I realise that I'm hving freaking bad headache and it's time to go home. Finally for e past wkend, i've already let half of wad i'm feeling inside off my chest. Felt better after my conversation w buddy & bibi~
Haiz, don't understand wad these ppl thinking. There's so much things tat i wanna say, but this time round, i guess, something r better left unspoken. It's been months... Months of torturing... I guess i must hv made them feel tat i'm realli stupid but i don't care. I'm going to re-arrange my stuffs nw, i need to think...

Anyway, birthday coming! Happy, sweet, touch & more mix feeling in me . . .

♥ 3:53 PM

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Life is not about waiting. My current goal is to save up for my next trip. Holiday to Japan? Anyone interested? School and work r as usual.

♥ 11:16 AM

Monday, November 03, 2008

Down with fever

I'm still lying flat on my comfy sheets, has been feeling so sick these few days, n sometime this realli made me such a lazy bummer. Been lying down almost 24/7. Feel so glutton recently, eat medicine and sleep! I was down with fever, body aching, flu e past wk yesterday, n still yet to recovered.

♥ 12:34 PM