and i'm leading it my way.

Friday, August 29, 2008

To Him:

Sometimes when e sadness & angryness overwhelm me so much, tat i begin to feel numb.. It's like nv ending feeling of heartache.. E worst period of my life tat i hv to go thru n nw again it came..

Its all my fault, yes i caused everything. Be it; my attitude, my action, my tone, my words & etc... But i tried, i really did tried my very best & everything tat i could.. & sometimes.. i think it even exceed wad i normally could give! It seems tat u still turn ur back on me w all my this n tat but in actual fact we knew well on e problem occurs all e while..

Pointing at me on e one who hurt u first but i don't feel good at all.. At time, my life realli turn in a mess but i'm glad tat even if u r nt e one standing beside me i do hv my family member. I can't lead a normal life or freaking GOOD temper like u coz I've my own problem! I don't hv much time to waste, i don't wan to end up leaving regret in my life.

Telling myself be persistant n nt just give up like that ( on workz, on biz, on relationship or whatever ) & i'm amazed by my determination cuz i've never done so much before.. Frens been telling me nt to work so hard n slowly move on.. Ppl telling me things that i don't wish to hear ( she's hopeless, women need nt to work so hard, i doubt he's e 1 & etc... ) but i'm just too stubborn to listen..

But at times, i feel really tired. I repeatedly ask myself y, y am i doing this to myself, y i couldn't bear to let it go on all things? Am i hoping for something tat will nv come true? Should i just let go? R u jus playing some kinda games? It has been quite sometimes nw & i'm still left hanging there.. I don't know wad else can i still do or say other than being alone n try nt to speak so much.

♥ 4:55 PM