and i'm leading it my way.

Monday, June 29, 2009

i'm feeling so good n nice :)

so happy! after 2 weeks, which was actually on the 18th.. i'll be bringing my parent n younger bro for a 8d 7n holiday trip~ yeah, this feeling is definitely so much better than staying in sg! wanna noe where r we heading? make a guess~
i've to admit tat no doubt it cost a bomb ( sgd$ 5000.00 included airfare, hotel & 80% of e meal ) but still i'm more than willing to fork out this money in order to bring dad n mum to this country tat they long too :)

went down st jame for ke's advance birthday celebration~ currently down w fever n body ache... hmmm... whatever it is... i'm a happy ger..

♥ 11:43 PM

Sunday, June 28, 2009

nt sure wad will u be thinking after u read these.. whatever tat comes to ur mind i hope u understand...

yes, it's u... u gotta pick urself up! no one can help u except urself. we all noe tat u hv a choice. make sure u won't regret after making this decision. times fly n human change but e fact is e things i've done so far has nv got an intention to hurt u badly~ haiz...

u're my sunshine . . .

♥ 12:14 PM

Sunday, June 21, 2009

people judge . . .
criticisms . . .

so wad?
i love myself.
i love wad i'm doing nw, yes! n i realli do.

loads of fun and booze
but still i love myself.
of all the poisonous words and wicked faces... will u still choose to stand by me?jus when i thought i ran out of pain... you words came crashing down on me

again.BUT . . . thanks u my long long friend . . . MR HZ~
" dress urself well, will pick u up @ 7pm, got a surprise for u "
well, this brighten up my days even though we didn't get to meet up in e end...

went down to chinatown n got some travel info, cloth n gifts! soon pang's family will be having a short-gate way trip which i long to hv. hmmmm, taiwan? china? hongkong or...

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!
dad, i love u~
thanks for all ur care, concern, love n every little things u've done in my life~

♥ 5:06 PM

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Morning~

ha-ha, things just got it right within wad I expected it to be... wad I feel n think now turn out to be e actual! Hey, I read MIND well ok...

~ Action speak louder than words ~

hmmm, I totally agree w is sentence.

I always "SU HOCK" ( ppl out there, u should noe hw to read ba ) those ppl out there who realli SOL n fullfill wad they said. Coz this ppl they do hv their BACKDONE w them~ BUT, at time i do understand tat at e point of time, " lose ppl cannot lose face " wahaha!

YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! PPL OUT THERE, NEED NOT TO TAG ME AND ASK ME WHO THIS PERSON I AM REFERING TOO.. COZ, I SIMPLY WON'T SAY~

- JOKE OF E DAY -

- I KNOW WHAT I WANT -

- DON'T TAKE ME FOR GRANTED -

- U R A LOSER -

- TO BE FRANK, PPL GOT EYE TO SEE, EAR TO HEAR N SENCE TO FEEL -

♥ 6:27 AM

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Yes, I am an utter IDIOT, STUPID, SHIT n etc…
I’ve don’t have the talent on giving good reason to my answer.
FUCK me then.
This is ridiculous… I feel so stupid. Relationships are always so troublesome!
You can’t be in so much of urself when u oh-so-want too but yet u can’t be always e one receiving and never give out.
I hate people to vent their anger on me when they are frustrated. Contradicting, I am. I knew I lose anger easily too…
I don’t drag everyone with me when I’m down. I’m not a selfish bitch. To follow or not, it’s your prerogative.
But don’t complain on whatever decision you made. Neither I nor someone else can pull the trigger. If u can’t continue to do what u’ve once done, then don’t ever do it. Or it’s just because it’s new and fresh? Feel so sick and tired with those million of reason u gave.
ONLY u CAN, but OTHERs can’t.

At first, really think u r someone tat understand me most, but….. I am wrongly totally… Something should done over here but I knew u r not going to do anything… Then LET’S DRAG ON.. My heart die slowly whenever things happen.

♥ 8:11 PM

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

I desperately need a short gate-way.
Feeling so suffocated here in Singapore, jus wanted to leave for a couple of days to take a breather.
Have not been blogging promptly and I don’t even noe where to start off..
Something is wrong “MAYBE” w me, and I don’t know what! I don’t enjoy doing things I like anymore… Don’t feel like seeing ppl I luv anymore.. I would rather gave those ppl 1-2 words reply else I’ll get myself into trouble.
Where are those attention span and tolerance once used to have? At time, things jus grow so frustrating tat I really feel like tearing n minutes later I wondered what’d e matter w me?
I feel that e ppl closest to me don’t understand me at all! Don’t care about me anymore.

A FEELING ONCE SO FAMILIAR!

♥ 5:08 PM

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

who's e one hving neg tot? y being so sentitive n can't even accept other comments? haiz, waiting for e day to come! i'm asking myself hw long more i've to drag on~

wad i use to hv i no longer hv it. i miss those day when HE treat me nice. bring me to places i've nt went n take care of me like her little ger. remember me on my future n many holidays~ i think i still . . . . .

♥ 4:53 PM

Sunday, June 07, 2009

Come accross this article:

Can Men And Women Be Friends?

Possible to hv an opposite sex friendship but you cannot compromise certain borders:

1. No late night dinners together. You can hv lunch tgt in a public place but u should nt order alcoholic beverages. " The embers of attraction really can grow in situations like tat & suddenly it's nt so innocent, it's nt friendship anymore, " Rabbi Shmuley says.

2. You can't take long drives or long flights w e other person, even if it's for work.
" Even if u hv to work w a colleague [ of e opposite sex ], there r still certain boundaries u need to preserve "

3. You cannot place urself in any situation where romance can grow. " Romance grows when ppl r alone; romance grows when ppl tell secrets. "

4. You can't share secrets w a platonic male or female friend that you don't share with you spouse.

5. You should not be friend with ex-lovers.

For additional articles on male/female friendships, click HERE

What you think? Can men and women just be friends?

Hmmmm, like what author " Rabbi Shmuley " mentioned, it is possible BUT there are so many barriers and restrictions, just in case both the both of you fall into the trap.. So, advise NOT.....

♥ 6:08 AM

Friday, June 05, 2009

I stared blankly at nothing for the longest time I ever did. I don’t know how to react and what to do next. I just realized, it took 3 sentences to end something once so beautiful.

I guess I could only write, cause arguing with you hurt me bad and kill my brain cell. Smiles turned into signs, hug turned cold, you make me feel so small and invisible. I am too weak for you. Maybe I don’t even know what is it that I want, my heart screaming, but my mind wants to let you go.

I’ll smile in the end, cause I feel tired, real hard to make it work.

At that moment, no words were needed…

Jason comment:

There’s pain/hope in your eyes reading
“ I’m waiting for e day to come “ . . .

♥ 12:43 PM

Thursday, June 04, 2009

I didn’t realized how dangerous, scary, cheapo a person's character can be until I saw the side of him/her.
Blinded by the pride, the greed n etc... I’m scared of u, afraid to be near u, not willing to hear from u. Now I finally know and I regret what I’ve done for u. I HATE U for wad you’ve done... Irritating fact which I can’t ignore was e " MISS u " n now again...
Especially those things that you've said and promise that it won’t happen again. BUT still~~

Then here come your " can’t help it, only ask, I did nothing theory " You'll hv ur million reason to the answer. Ask urself, why am I so insecure?

Making others problem become urs problem... [ this is wad u r good at! ]

Anyway, remember this n drill it in mind!

THERE IS ONLY 2 PROBLEM IN THIS WORLD.
1ST IS UR PROBLEM, 2ND IS MINE PROBLEM.
PLEASE DON'T MAKE UR PROBLEM BECOME MY PROBLEM
&
U CAN REST ASSURE THAT I WON'T TURN MY PROBLEM BECOME URS.

This time, is really not within my tolerating abilities to swallow this down…
I mean these are the actions your love one does to make you feel special isn’t it? What meaning does it holds if you do it to every other girl.

Come on, people… Please tell me I’m not acting crazy and it’s normal to feel so… Don’t you think so?

♥ 2:08 PM

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

a lot of times i asked myself is it worth it? or just another period of actions n talks . . .
n each time i insist my trust in him!

&

today he prove me right, all my hard work did not gone into waste.

I'M PROUD OF MY YOUNGER BRO, HE PASS HIS INTERVIEW AND GOT INTO LASELLE!

♥ 11:29 PM